some truths

I am a child of the King! I am a patient to the most wonderful and skilled physician! I am a customer to the worlds largest bank! I am loved by the worlds first lover. I am touched by the healer of all healers! I claim healing and wholeness I claim happiness and pureness, I claim perfect peace over my body! I claim rest and calmness as I go about my day. THESE THINGS I KNOW! the rest will follow in suit. Have a good day and whatever you are facing today know that these truths apply to you as well!

In my weakness

so I have a cold...I can't stop coughing and spluttering and feeling miserable. But I was sitting this morning and praying and in the still and quiet I heard Jesus speak to me and say in your weakness I make you strong, in your sorrow I bring you joy. SO In my weakness he is there, my hardship he is there, my sore throat he is there holding it and keeping the infections at bay. I thankyou Lord for keeping me from beingn too sick abd I praise you for your continual provision over my life! I claim healing and wholeness! AMen!

I love my husband :)

So I know it's probably obvious but I don't really post about Steve that often. So this is a blog for him :) I am so blessed to have a husband who works his full 40+hours a week, comes home looks after Maggie to give me a rest and then often helps make tea or does the dishes or tidies away for me after she goes to bed. He always suprises me with little bits and bobs and does little things like when he went to get the coffee he got the kind with a hint of chocolate in it because he knows I love it! :) I know he's not perfect and I know that our marriage is far from perfect in fact some would say it's not healthy...but sod them and their ideas because what matters is that we love each other, he supports me and I support him, we work together in life and we make things happen. Honey I love you so much and I adore the fact that you suprise me in the little things and blow me away with the big! xoxox

Zombie Momma

Aimee had her shots on Tuesday and we gave her calpol and she was fine, she slept amazingly well tuesday night and was a really good baby on weds. So we thought nothing of it....last night come bedtime she started getting fidgety and then the fidgety turned into outright fussing and screaming. She didn't want to nurse and she didn't want to lay down, she didn't want me to sit down either. I ended up being sent downstairs to sleep on the couch as we didnt want Maggie to wake up and Steve had to get up for work. So there I was trying to get this baby to sleep! Eventually at 6am she settled down and went to sleep but it was such a long night! Maggie woke up at 9am and was raring to go...but I think she could sense how tired I was because she behaved amazingly well. After she had her breakfast and watched some 'Beebies I got her dressed and took her to nursery. I came home and fed the baby and had breakfast and then fed her again and then I came upstairs changed her winded her and laid her down in a safe place. I was so ready for a rest! She wriggled about for a little while and then settled down herself and allowed me to take an hour nap! AMAZING then we had lunch with Steve and I came upstairs for a shower. This is the first time she has let me take a shower, normally she gets bored and I end up stepping out of the shower with my hair half washed or one leg shaved ;) this time however I managed to have a shower, wash my hair, shave my legs, brush my teeth and apply my hair balm (darn  you frizzy hair!!) all the while she stayed happily in her bouncer. She has been dozing off and on throughout the day so I am a little nervous about tonight but I can always nap tomorow. I feel a bit more refreshed and not so much like a Zombie but still on the verge and I have no clue what to do for tea. Was going to have left over roast beef but it turns out it was mainly fat and not much meat so there wasn't much worth making. Possibly stop and get some pizza after I get Mags tonight it's quick and easy or maybe I can get Stanley to bring home something quick. Yes better idea seeing as how he is the one working there lol. So yeah fingers crossed that she sleeps tonight. I am trying to get her used to sleeping in her big girl bed and so her naps have been meanly interupted by me putting her down and her wondering how she got from warm boob to cool sheets and wooden bars :) I'm sure she will survive lol

Getting creative!

So this is a new year and a new chance to try out my creative side. Recently we removed the top half of our French dresser as I was terrified that Maggie would pull it over on top of herself and end up really really hurt if not dead and it terrified me. So we moved it downstairs into the cellar for the next 16 years ;) lol but this left a big white wall for me to fill! I love the idea of showing off Maggie's millions of artistic designs that she comes home with from nursery and the ones that we do on our Saturdays off together but don't really have space to put them up, they end up on our cupboard doors and fall off and sadly end up crumpled. SO I am making a giant notice board to go on the wall where the dresser was. I am making one of those fabric one's with the ribbon that criss crosses across itself and you tuck bits and pieces into it. One side will be artwork the other will be a corkboard to put important remember bits in it. Since I have decorated the room in blue Toile de Joi I am getting some fabric in that print for my board! I am so excited about this.  Let me see what else am I doing....umm oh yes we are trading bedrooms with Maggie as our current one is slightly bigger and will be perfect for when the girls start to share their bedroom and need more space so I am also currently looking for storage solutions that will maximise our space. I am thinking one of those over the bed shelving units that come down the side sort of surrounding the bed? Also we are moving a super tall bookcase into the room so we have space to put bits and bobs. I am looking for a wardrobe that I can refurnish and repaint as we have to leave OURS in the girls room since they are too big. I am just brimming with creative juices and can't wait to start. I am also getting ready to do some planting I just need to pick up some dirt from the shop and plant up my starts for the greenhouse. To begin with I am going to do salad leaves, cabbage, and herbs with some tomatos as well and then will move on to starting my pumpkins and squash once my others have taken off. Really looking forward to all of these things! Lets hope I don't run out of puff and give up. Will post pictures as I go along.

the mouths of babes...

lately Maggie has been learning new words and is able to have conversations with me, profound ones that show me she is growing up and understanding the world around her. I make a point to pray over my girls audibly so they know what is going on and can learn faith through physical act not from reading or hearing about it. Today was day 4 of Maggie not going for a pooh, and I know that she is little and these things aren't seriously huge to most people but I get upset when she bumps her elbows, so to see her in this much pain and doubled over trying to pooh was tearing me up. Last night we found a lump on her tummy and I was so worried about it. So this morning while waiting for the dr's to ring us back and make an apt to see her and check the lump I decided to pray over her. So while she was laid down I put her hand, Aimee's hand and my hand over her tummy where the lump was and I said to her "Maggie we are going to pray to Jesus and ask Him to make you feel better and make your pooh come out." every time I pray I remind her that Jesus is the one who kept her safe while she was in hospital and the one who kept Mummy safe when Aimee was in my tummy, I don't know if she gets this but I want her to learn to be thankful in prayer...so anyways we prayed over her tummy with her doing some of the prayers and then we finished. Before we left for the drs she did a pooh! Then throughout the day she did a few more and was feeling so much better and her lump was going down hugely. AMAZING. We were sat having her tea and she looked over at m and said "happy birthday baby Jesus" and  I smiled and said \"yes Mags it was Jesus birthday that's right"  and then she said and I wanted to cry... "Baby Jesus big...baby Jesus fixed Maggie tummy"  That right there, that moment in time I was dumbstruck by the realization that my teeny tiny dot of a toddler recognized that Jesus healed her! You know you pray for your kids, you claim things in their names and you stand in the gap for them...it's tiring and devastatingly exhausting but that simple statement made it worth it. She is going to be something big one day!!

January?? Already??

So it is January! Goodness me! Well first of all Happy New Year and Happy Holidays! I hope all of you enjoyed your time together with your families. Ours was a time blessed with Yorkshire family, and our own little family unit! We woke up at our house christmas morning and enjoyed breakfast and opened pressies then drove up to yorkshire to see Steve's family. We realized when we were there that we had forgotten the travel cot so we had 4 in the bed at one point and only Maggie asleep :) lol hmm we did come home a day early due to weather warnings and due to the fact that I was going insane trying to keep Maggie out of all of Fredas breakable things. It was a lovely time...then we had a nice new years eve here at the house and it is now 2011! Today was so eventful I went out and worked in the garden and planted some bulbs, cut back the dead growth and Steve put our greenhouse together! So far I am filled with hope for the year, it is full of new chances, and new opportunities. I am moving into a new job role, I am a new mommy, Steve and I have been married for 7 years and so a new phase of our marriage and a more mature outlook into our future as a whole. Maggie is at that point where she is a sponge and is taking in everything she is given and responding amazingly. She learns so quickly these days and has grownup conversations. I had a conversation with my health visitor today and she told me what my mom has been telling me all along. I don't have Severe PND I have PND tendencies and am not getting enough sleep which is understandable with a baby who eats all night long. Speaking of which...she is getting much better and only wakes once or twice and the colic does seem to be easing a bit which is such a relief. I am inspired this month to start pumping again and start introducing Aimee to a bottle every now and again and that will help when I go back to work and if we want to go out to dinner and get a sitter. (AS IF THAT WILL HAPPEN RIGHT?) but yeah it will be good! So looking forward in peace and hope and acting in faith that God is going to keep us happy and healthy. Ohh I am a bit concerned about all of the swine flu fluff about but I am claiming health over my family and myself and praying for complete protection.