remember when??

Ok so I am getting ready to read my Country Living Magazine and got the giggles as I sit down with my cup of tea and magazine..before husband and children I would be the first to buy my Cosmo and diet coke, I would sprawl out wherever with Amy and Abby munching our way through platters of pickles, and brownies  and we would do all of the quizzes and giggle as we read all of the "grownup" subjects and whisper about how we would never be caught dead in those outfits lol but what fun right? Nowadays I get my magazine through the letter box and I'm like "woohoo country living!" I'm just amused at how much I have changed...now when I look at a magazine it's like "hmmm I wonder how hard it would be to make a chicken coop in the garden shed?" and "oh wow an offer for 500 tulip bulbs" whereas before it was "hmm I wonder how hard it would be to convert my closet into a dressing room" lol and "oh wow a offer on lipgloss!"  haha anyways it just struck me as silly. Hey ho but I do want some chickens in my garden, just a few, and maybe a rabbit or two? Still working on the puppy request so far its still a NO but I really think we need one ;) heehee ok that's all for now I'm going to go enjoy my country living magazine!

changes

so what is this all about? our wandering through life? I know full well that I am a human doing and being but what is it that I am supposed to be doing? I was given a word over the weekend and I am still working out how to use it. It was a brilliant word and was full of encouragement. It spoke truth into what I have been feeling for a while. God is good isn't He? I mean for me a touch from the Holy Spirit has to be a huge obvious slap in the face type of thing since I am so determined to NOT be a part of emotionalism in christianity..I am more against that then alot of things. But the weekend challenged me on so much...which is good. I was challenged to let Steve be the man of the house and to submit to his authority, to submit to his decisions and to work harder at being a loving wife to him. I was also challenged to accept that what has happened to us in the past is done with now and that I am moving forwards and rejoicing. A word that stuck out to me as I was going through the day was "Enough crying, enough sadness, enough terror in the night, enough worry, enough depression..move forward in joy and laughter"  We have had our fair share of these things in the last couple years and it is time for me to move forward. Part of the word that was given to me was that it was my turn, my time, that God wanted to bring forth these dry bones and work through me. I was challenged by my speech as well...to stop being negative and not to worry so much about what others think, to be the best version of me that I can be. It was only a one day Encounter but it has changed me for life! :) We are loving our new church..really feel like family. This sunday we were invited to sit with a family that we are getting close to and not on the end of the seat but in the middle and it was so kind of them and I really felt like I belonged...first time in what seems like since I have been in the UK. Steve is getting to be good friends with one of the pastors there and I am loving the fact that he is being accepted and encouraged as well...he's currently in reading a book about something or other but is just really growing so much in his walk with God. I am so proud of him. We are all growing in Jesus! Maggie is like a sponge and last night learned part of Jesus Loves Me but of course had to include igglepiggle and upsydaisy too so Jesus not only loves Maggie May but she wanted to be sure he loves Igglepiggle ;) how adorable is that! I am back to work in a few weeks and am nervous but I am sure it will be fine once I get into the swing of things. I also have a blood test this Friday to determine where my hormone levels are at and to see what I need to be doing to keep my PCOS at a level place. The doctor has recomended that I have the coil fitted which is a bit daunting as we were going to say no more children but over the weekend I was given a peace about it, and I suppose in a few more years maybe I would like another baby after the girls are a bit older. So it's all change, but for the good....I love this time of year. It's springtime! The birds are singing, the flowers are blooming, seeds are pushing up and hope is springing forth. JOY EVERLASTING!!!!!!

catching up

This is where the notice boards will go when they are finished

My banana bread! Was so tasty!

Project 1

Maggie's sticker chart

in one single moment they remind me that life isn't about "THINGS" it is about smiles and laughter and family and living beautifully. I love you girls!

Ok so I haven't posted for a while mainly because I have been ill! I had a chest infection and was passing out and coughing up what resembled the slime in the outside garbage can :( YUCK but I have come to the conclusion that despite all of this as a mother of two and wife of one I don't get to lay in bed and "BE ILL" oh no the world still spins and life still goes on. Babies still need to be fed, toddlers still need entertaining and husbands still have that need to be reassured that they are loved. Weekdays were ok as Maggie went to nursery and I curled up on the couch with Aimee and we didn't do alot. But weekends were torture on the worst day Steve had to come home from work to look after the girls because my temp was too high to cope. I went to the walkin centre and they gave me some antibiotics which really helped although my cough is still bad but not as bad as it was? I also struggled because Maggie has decided she wants to wear big girl panties and so will randomly take her nappy off and then of course if there is no potty we end up with puddles on my floor. No big deal normally but as I went into the 40th coughing fit of the day and blacked out yet again I realized that being a mum is amazingly hard work! God has been good though I could have been much worse and had I not gone to the walk in centre when I did would have been hospitalized. This week I am catching up on housework and me work lol because I wasn't there to do the dishes they didn't get done at all last week, and my dining room looked like a bomb had gone off in it, my lounge had become a dumping ground/spare bedroom and my bedroom had that stale smell that happens when you sweat out a 104 temp :) needless to say I have had my work cut out for me this week. It's only tuesday and I seem to be doing ok. In fact I see a light at the end of the tunnel. This afternoon I am going grocery shopping with Stanley and stocking up on things for my crockpot and things that can be done healthy but in a hurry. It's begining to feel like spring outside little buds popping up out of the ground and the sky is blue more and more during the day. I love this time of year, it fills me with hope and encouragement, with Spring comes a promise and a want to do better and make things better so I am on a big "DO IT BETTER" kick! I want to start working out, I want to lose this baby weight, I want to get Maggie fully potty trained and get Aimee rolling over and sitting up in her bumbo, I am also working with Steve to strengthen our marriage and we are starting some devotionals tonight that are for Married Couples. Looking forward to doing something other then crashing in front of the telly :) Also I want to finish a few projects that I have going on. SO it's all go in our house. I am so thankful that I am feeling better and able to get up and move about...it's horrid not being able to do what I need to get done. Have a great day and be blessed!

some truths

I am a child of the King! I am a patient to the most wonderful and skilled physician! I am a customer to the worlds largest bank! I am loved by the worlds first lover. I am touched by the healer of all healers! I claim healing and wholeness I claim happiness and pureness, I claim perfect peace over my body! I claim rest and calmness as I go about my day. THESE THINGS I KNOW! the rest will follow in suit. Have a good day and whatever you are facing today know that these truths apply to you as well!

In my weakness

so I have a cold...I can't stop coughing and spluttering and feeling miserable. But I was sitting this morning and praying and in the still and quiet I heard Jesus speak to me and say in your weakness I make you strong, in your sorrow I bring you joy. SO In my weakness he is there, my hardship he is there, my sore throat he is there holding it and keeping the infections at bay. I thankyou Lord for keeping me from beingn too sick abd I praise you for your continual provision over my life! I claim healing and wholeness! AMen!

I love my husband :)

So I know it's probably obvious but I don't really post about Steve that often. So this is a blog for him :) I am so blessed to have a husband who works his full 40+hours a week, comes home looks after Maggie to give me a rest and then often helps make tea or does the dishes or tidies away for me after she goes to bed. He always suprises me with little bits and bobs and does little things like when he went to get the coffee he got the kind with a hint of chocolate in it because he knows I love it! :) I know he's not perfect and I know that our marriage is far from perfect in fact some would say it's not healthy...but sod them and their ideas because what matters is that we love each other, he supports me and I support him, we work together in life and we make things happen. Honey I love you so much and I adore the fact that you suprise me in the little things and blow me away with the big! xoxox

Zombie Momma

Aimee had her shots on Tuesday and we gave her calpol and she was fine, she slept amazingly well tuesday night and was a really good baby on weds. So we thought nothing of it....last night come bedtime she started getting fidgety and then the fidgety turned into outright fussing and screaming. She didn't want to nurse and she didn't want to lay down, she didn't want me to sit down either. I ended up being sent downstairs to sleep on the couch as we didnt want Maggie to wake up and Steve had to get up for work. So there I was trying to get this baby to sleep! Eventually at 6am she settled down and went to sleep but it was such a long night! Maggie woke up at 9am and was raring to go...but I think she could sense how tired I was because she behaved amazingly well. After she had her breakfast and watched some 'Beebies I got her dressed and took her to nursery. I came home and fed the baby and had breakfast and then fed her again and then I came upstairs changed her winded her and laid her down in a safe place. I was so ready for a rest! She wriggled about for a little while and then settled down herself and allowed me to take an hour nap! AMAZING then we had lunch with Steve and I came upstairs for a shower. This is the first time she has let me take a shower, normally she gets bored and I end up stepping out of the shower with my hair half washed or one leg shaved ;) this time however I managed to have a shower, wash my hair, shave my legs, brush my teeth and apply my hair balm (darn  you frizzy hair!!) all the while she stayed happily in her bouncer. She has been dozing off and on throughout the day so I am a little nervous about tonight but I can always nap tomorow. I feel a bit more refreshed and not so much like a Zombie but still on the verge and I have no clue what to do for tea. Was going to have left over roast beef but it turns out it was mainly fat and not much meat so there wasn't much worth making. Possibly stop and get some pizza after I get Mags tonight it's quick and easy or maybe I can get Stanley to bring home something quick. Yes better idea seeing as how he is the one working there lol. So yeah fingers crossed that she sleeps tonight. I am trying to get her used to sleeping in her big girl bed and so her naps have been meanly interupted by me putting her down and her wondering how she got from warm boob to cool sheets and wooden bars :) I'm sure she will survive lol